der Freischütz

... my hair is already thinning at age 21 and I have a guitar! MAYBE THAT MEANS I SHOULD KILL THIS JOURNAL.

Albums of the month will be AFI - The Art of Drowning (old guard) and Lacuna Coil - Unleashed Memories (new).

This whole not-being-in-an-apartment thing sucks. At least there's what has the potential to be a really nice storm moving in. Though the last one took out our power at midnight. That's why I'm getting a "cheap" "UPS" on the way home tonight. (Well, back home.)

There was something I had to say here. Must not have been important. (Well.) ... and it's official. I thought I just saw a huge, fuck-off spider crawling up the side of my care. I'm going crazy. I quit.

So life now. Is interesting. I have a kitchen of my own, that's clean when I moved in, and will be clean when I move out - stupidly, ineffably clean - and a bit of my own private space. And no Internet. Ah, but I'm feeling much the same ... ah, hahaha. Hahaha ... DAMMIT. Oh well, I suppose this is Miz, too. No sense in worrying about it, as this isn't all that bad, really. I'm sure I'm pretty much okay, right? No, life is going well. I think I've discovered that,for me, there's such thing as too much Dresden Dolls, though. Just a bit unhinged, nothing to see here, yay.

But now I have to do what I can, if I can, to prevent this little bit of history repeating. Except this bit of history wasn't meant to have happened in the first place, and I just don't know what I'm going to end up doing, and I don't want your fucking money anyway you GRAAAAAAAGH

I was driving by a bingo parlor last night, and there was an ambulance outside, and I couldn't help thinking, "Oh no! One of the old people died playing bingo! I guess they won and got too excited!" ... or something like that. (This paragraph is really here for looniac, as it strikes me as something she'd have said.)

I'm fairly disillusioned with arashi_no_kaze at the moment (bad timing, hi, shorinai). I'm not sure what's going to happen with it in the future. Even when I have consistent Internet. On verra, hein.

Everything is pretty good and pretty less good right now, but life is fine. It's not so much a case of things outweighing others ... meh, no time or will to explain. In any case, I ought to be settled by the time my month is over.

Also, I forgot to mention this yesterday, but the girl at Camdi was wearing a QoW "Read." shirt. Oh, the things you notice when you're leaving town.

New Gorillaz! New Sleater-Kinney! Noodles.

I think I learned something interesting tonight. Boo.

I'm kind of abusing this icon mood ... I just wanted to see Rip van being all "Ah, it's Zamiel!". My Hellsing manga is in a box, like too few of my possesions are at the moment. Will I box the rest myself? Will someone else? Who knows.

There was something else that was supposed to go here, but I can't for the life of me remember what it was.

Because I'm sufficiently bored, and don't think things through, and cetera, 「post anything that you want, and post it anonymously. Anything.
A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post as many times as you'd like.」 (And yes, I hate you all, and am constantly angry ... er, no, wait.)

DVD burning sucks. (I've had several runs through before I could get it to work on a really small data set ... now I'm burning an image of a bunch of parapara videos, and hopefully it will work. If so, I'll try to burn Hameln to a DVD-R ... again. And hopefully not make an expensive coaster.) (Hey, apparently I can burn DVDs now. *deletes Hameln*)

Packing sucks. (This is self explanatory.)

Not having a car sucks. With luck that'll be solved soon, but it's looking like not today.

New rule: I'm going to stop evaluating days here.

Forewarning to anyone within 100 miles (heh) ... the next five days is going to be stupidly busy and stressing. If I seem snarky, it's not you.

*grumbles and runs to do paperwork*

New rule: yesterday didn't exist.

Hrmn, off to make today not suck ... I really need to hurry.

Does anyone reading this right now know any German? The "right now" bit is important since my question essentially becomes moot Monday morning.

じゅんび出来たぜ。。。かくご。

My life needs a lot more signal, lots less noise. I almost don't particularly care what's in the signal, as long as it's there.

Oh, US IIDX release (as just "beatmania") next year. The world is ending, and it's unbelievably hot.

Listening to 11.975 MHz, first comic.
Once you reach 39, you'll have to get to 40, 41, 42, and maybe 43 by changing the number in the URL bar.

Once you're done with that, there's more of the same, but different, on a different server.

Y'all should read War for the Oaks, by Emma Bull, 'coz it's neat and set in Minneapolis and I said so.

Tell me, please, what is signal and what is noise ... ?

ARGH

I MISSED NATIONAL LICK 58 TOASTERS DAY

これこそがミズの「自分革命」．And if I could maintain this feeling, I would feel comfortable calling that particular piece of revolution complete. It's the logical extension of the inability I have to give up on a lot of things. 第二レベルミズはどんな人に。。。

Boris mentioned to me last night that a lot of what I write here is vague and utterly opaque. I replied that I probably had good reason, and he said ... "There is no good reason." But I think the style of this thing is mostly because a lot of what I write here is for myself, after all. I remember something a lot better if I write them down somewhere, which accounts for a lot of any odd details that make their way here. And there are other reasons which I can't easily explain now (and I don't have the time to try). I guess there's no way I could expect anything here to be for anyone else.

Back in the real world, I left my sketchbook at MAS, and I hope someone picked it up before they left, because it's not at Moos.

( Introspective, but not whining. )

I should stop getting distracted from sleep, but there's so much more I could be doing ... so should I sleep for three hours or so, or just sleep way more than I should? I intend to go for the former, but the latter is always what happens. Another day, another experiment.

Ah, spring and Healing Vision ... なつかしいな。

So graduation is Friday. I need to see about moving my stuff.

This week has been nice so far, but wildly unproductive ... well, except for starting to think more about that. I've had the idea in my head for over a year, but I wonder if it's really time to start working on it yet. I'm subject to all sorts of weird influences these days. Like vampires. Though I don't think I'm escaping that one ... ehehehe. Damn you, Hirano Kouta.

I've become aware, recently, how horrible my writing style is. This isn't reflected in my journaling habits, but if I were to whip up some prose fiction to post here, it most certainly would be. Fortunately, I don't feel a burning need to accomplish something on that front again yet ... but dammit, I need to practice.

最近統べてがくずれていく気がする。しらない。が、今は絶対にまよってとまるばあいじゃない。

ps QL just gave me a great "It's warm outside!" present ... THE DRACHMEN - Hier kommt die Sonne XD
pps I think it's time to start updating some of my old lyrics translations.